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Mar. 26th, 2013 | 08:12 pm
mood: hopefulhopeful
music: the 90's.

Bought a ticket for tonight's Euromillions, because hey, it's a 96 million pound jackpot. I've somehow managed to convince myself that I'm actually going to win, and have mentally spent it all already. Basically I'm going to try and get 90's alternative music back. This'll be quite difficult, because I'm not looking to get withered old has beens like Soundgarden to plug their new pish albums. Or whatever bullshit version of Smashing Pumpkins Billy Corgan is currently peddling. No, I want the actual 90's version of these bands. Basically I'm going to spend 96 million quid getting back to go to Rock am Ring 1994.

This will be totally worth it.

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Mar. 24th, 2013 | 09:44 am

So no response to my last post, so now I'm in a quandary. My blog is not working for me any more, but then neither is this place.
All that, however, will have to wait until I have recovered from this horrible cold. Because right now I can barely think straight, and that's even before you factor in the two kids driving me mad. Urge.

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Mar. 23rd, 2013 | 10:25 am
mood: Cold

Last night I posted this over at my blog....

The party’s over

Not been posting lately, not out of any particular sense of laziness (although that is of course a big part of it) but because I haven’t really had a great deal to say. Or at least nothing I’ve felt urgently needed to be sent out into the world on an opinion balloon, floated for all the world to see, mock, or worse, ignore. Or at least, that’s how I’ve felt of late. Every single self imposed blogging exile I have comes down to one thing, that nagging voice at the back of my head that says, ‘honestly Paul, who gives a shit?’

Don’t worry, I’m not about to embark upon a self pity rant, or a plea for validation. But I’ve found myself of late wondering a lot about my relationship to ‘the internet’. I don’t tweet with anything like my old fervour, Tumblr is a thing I watch rather than engage with, and Facebook is ever more infuriating. But then the other day an interesting thing happened.

I was talking to my erstwhile DP partner-in-inanity, and we were jesting about what would happen to DP once the inevitable day came when we both lost interest. He joked about moving it to Geocities for posterity, and I remarked that we should turn it into a LiveJournal.  Oh how we chuckled. Or I did, he might have done but it was a conversation conducted over instant messaging and he never confirmed his chortle. But it was implied.

But then I got to thinking. I hadn’t thought about LiveJournal in years, my old blogging home. It suddenly occurred to me that my old blog might still be there. Lo and behold it was, and there went two hours of my life as I peered through my fingers at the younger me and his cringeworthy entries. But among the toe curling posts, I realised a few things.

One: I didn’t actually start off on LJ. I honestly thought I had, but I was on Blogger first. I started my Blogger blog in October 2003, then went over to LJ in January 2004. This also means I’ve been blogging nearly a decade. Sorry, I know none of this information is particularly noteworthy to anyone other than myself.

Two: I was on LJ for ages. I thought I’d gone independent after only a short dalliance with LJ, but no, I was on there until July 2006. Two and half years, and a lot further into my life than I had thought.

Three: This is the important bit. I can’t work out for the life of me now why I left. Looking back through my old posts I was part of an actual blogging community within LJ. I left it for a world where you need to shout every post from the rooftops in order that people might come and read it, beyond the hardcore of actual regular readers, most of whom were only there because of LJ in the first place.

On LJ, the only people likely to read what you write are other LJ users, unless you go hawking out your posts. This means that you are considerably freer to write nonsense and personal gubbins because your audience are in the same boat. There were communities and groups and looking back on it now the twitter world I fell in love with originally took a lot of its greatness from communities like LJ.

So once I finished reading through the load of old wank I used to write, i started checking out a few of the old friends to see how long they had kept their old LJ accounts going for. Quite a few managed to hold out until the last few years, but all but two of them are now gone. I was devastated. It was like leaving a party for the promise of a more epic night, only to decide to go back when everyone had gone to bed and there’s only a few stragglers picking up fag ends and cans for the recycling bins.

I think I missed the party. But a huge part of me wants to go back to LJ now, and just scrap this whole independent blog thing all together. Those of you who read regularly would still be able to find me.

But I don’t know if there’s any point, if nobody is still there, if the party is well and truly over. So tell me, blogger friends. What to do? Do you still have your old accounts? Do you know people who still use LJ? Would you still check in on me if I move back, just to make sure I’ve not gone insane on my own in there? Or am I looking at this through my patented rose tinted goggles?

So... thoughts? Anyone out there?

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Hi there

Mar. 22nd, 2013 | 08:15 pm
mood: curiouscurious
music: Today is the Day

So this is a test.... anyone still out there?

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Sign Off

Jul. 3rd, 2006 | 11:51 am

Well, that's it, my new blog has been set up.  For now, this is the end of my LJ.  I hope you'll all stop by at the new pad.  I'm keeping this live so I can still see what all of you are up to.  Until then..........

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Getting ahead

Jun. 25th, 2006 | 07:14 pm
music: The Bees - Sunshine Hit Me

Well, it looks as though I was getting ahead of myself with the whole new girl thing, so I shall shut up about it.  Anyway, met a stonkingly nice girl the other day, then proceeded to lose her contact details, which is a bit of a bugger.  Never mind.  Watched the predicably turgid England game today, which produced the same levels of frustration, anger and pity that all the other England games have done.  Will watch the Portugal - Holland game later, just so I can see who we'll get beaten by in the next round.

My gaming obsessed housemates are playing FIFA downstairs, hence the sojourn in webland.  No matter how hard I try I just can't get into gaming, despite my best efforts and my otherwise exceedingly high dork factor.  I just don't have the patience for it.  i prefer to be entertained, rather than entertain myself.  I guess I'm just lazy.  Oh well.

Did anyone else get hat wierd LJ notice?  Methinks the lady doth protest too much.

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Jun. 19th, 2006 | 09:01 pm
music: Agoraphobic Nosebleed - Frozen Corpse Stuffed With Dope

Maybe I shouldn't have been so quick to announce my potential exit from LJ, judging the lack of comments to my last post.....  Maybe I'll stay, maybe I won't.  Happy now?

I hate to go a bit emo, but anyone who knows me at all will know that I haven't been having the best track record with women recently.  But recently I've met someone, someone who makes me smile in ways I haven't done much recently, someone in whos company I feel utterly relaxed, someone with whom I can glimpse some form of future.  Grand, you may say, but unfortunately, she's holding back, despite the fact that I'm fairly sure she feels the same way.  Hmmm.  It may have something to do with the fact that she's going to be leaving York until October in a few weeks, although I'm guessing tere's some idiot in her past who hurt her pretty badly.

She comments that she doesn't want to start something that will lead to losing a perfectly viable friendship, and that's a perfectly viable opinion, I guess, but I'm now at the point where I just want her to realise that some things are worth risking.  I thought that the fact that I have managed to maintain friendships with a number of exes over the years would have placated her a little, but it doesn't seems to have helped, so now I'm back to doubting whether she feels the same spark that I do.

I guess I'll have to wait and see what happens, even if I do have to wait until October.  Oh well.  In other news, it appears that the new Superman film is getting fantabulous reviews in America, which bodes well.  This is definitely a house looking forward to it, so I am now eagerly awaiting the July relase date.

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Jun. 17th, 2006 | 06:53 pm
music: Sigur Ros - Takk

I have something to admit.  The reson I've been neglecting to post recently has quite a lot to do with the fact that faily soon I shall be leaving the fold to go have my own blog, once it's up and running.  But let's see.  Ah Yes, Download festival. 

Firstly, forget everything you have read elsewhere, it was my 15th festival and far and away the best of them.  The ammount of amazing bands on display, coupled with the ammount of one-off spectacular incidents (Max joins Deftones for the first time in years! Down turn up and open the main stage on saturday!  Metallica play Master of Puppets in its entirety!  Izzy joins Guns again!) coupled with being there with all my favourite festival people added up to one hell of a weekend, even if I did go blind for most of Sunday.  Once again apologies to miramanga for the inability to contact her though.

What else?  Oh yeah, there may be a new lady in my life.  I dunno for certain yet, but I'm fully smitten, despite her buggering off until October in about a week and a half's time.  I shall have to see though.

Anyway... does anyone watching lots of the World Cup find themselves wanting to listen to Takk by Sigur Ros a lot recently.  I think I've heard clips from nearly every song during BBC's coverage.....

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Jun. 1st, 2006 | 01:02 pm
music: Surprisingly enough, TOOL!

Am a trifle embarrased about my last post, seems all so infantile now that everything has been resolved.  I'm going to lock it so that the outside world can't see, but in truth everything is all fine and dandy in Paul Land right now.

I'm going to go watch 8 Simple Rules now.

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Down Day

May. 16th, 2006 | 02:33 pm
location: Home
music: Tool. What a shock.

Having a down day, but have been cheered up immeasurably by miramanga so cheers for that!

Having a few issues with the magazine at the moment, not sure how well it's going to work out, but we'll see.

Also, been a right sad loser today and signed up for the friends reunited single sad bastards service.  I think that may have been what sparked the bad mood in the first place.

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